When Chaos Knocks, Answer With Love

This piece popped up in my Facebook memories this morning, and it seemed like a good time to re-share it.  It’s been a year since the election that shook the country, and our call to action is louder than ever. 

This morning, the shock is echoing around the world. Things feel dangerous, chaotic, shaky, seismic. People are afraid, grief-stricken, stunned, speechless. 

But, consider this:

My friend, Laura, has said many times that the greatest change comes out of chaos.

Chaos holds all possibilities.

And the energy on Planet Earth right now is one of polarization, uncovering secrets, and shining light into the dark corners. We are witnessing the manifestation of this on a global scale. Our beloved Gaia is letting us know, as loudly and clearly as She can, that things cannot continue on in the way they have been.

chaos

Think about how our emotions manifest as physical pain. We know we need to leave the soul-sucking job and move in the direction of our dreams, yet we do nothing. Our energetic bodies react first by making us angry, irritable, and out of sorts. Yet we continue. Our bodies then start to get in on the messaging with aches that are out of proportion, pains that have no apparent root, we get sick more often and it takes longer to get well. Yet, we still ignore the knowing inside us. Finally, our bodies break down, refusing to work another day, walk another step, lift another box or pen or telephone receiver. We cannot, physically continue in the job that shrivels our soul. Our body has forced us to stop, notice, take action. There is no other choice.

That is where we are as citizens of the US, and, truly, the world.

Our collective energy has finally given us an unmistakable sign to wake up, embrace the love and change and peace we say we espouse, defend those more helpless than us, rise up in righteous anger to say, “No! We will not stand for this!”  We can no longer sit passively by, not stepping fully into our Divine selves, fearing judgement or ridicule or failure. Our failure is in not standing by our principles. We don’t need the President to give us permission to do this, or do it for us. We do this in the small moments of our every day, in each interaction.

When we choose love, compassion, and peace over division, hatred and violence, we are taking action to stop the descent and turn it around. 

More than ever before, the Earth needs you to uncover your Light. Shine it on the people you encounter at the grocery store, both the guy whose minivan is covered in anti-everyone-but-white-men stickers and the Hispanic family who stands too close to you in line. Shine it on your friends and loved ones, but also on the coworker who tells sexist jokes in the breakroom (and take appropriate boundary-setting actions). Shine it on the people who agree with you and those who don’t. Shine it on your leaders, your bosses, the salespeople, the drivers who are on the road with you. Shine it on everyone you meet, everyone you see, everyone in the world.  The Field of Infinite Possibilities that is the chaos we see right now will react by manifesting the loving, peaceful world we want.

We need the catalyst that is the election of a man so many people despise. We needed him to be elected. We needed this wake up call to change. Would we have felt so angry, so ready to fight for the people who have been targeted in this man’s rhetoric, if he had not been elected? or would it have been business -slow, bigoted, painful business- as usual? Nothing has changed in this country with the election of Donald Trump. Things have only been outlined in neon, flashing yellow, things that were already truths of this country.  Nothing is new. It is only out in the open now. And you cannot change where you’re going until you know where you are.

Now, we know where we are. We know where we stand. And it has never been more true that we need, each of us, to find in ourselves the love, beauty, and peace we want to see in the world. Become that which you most desire. Embody those ideals you hold most dear. Your doing so will cause untold ripples in the fabric of the Universe, touching those who are still afraid, those almost ready to stand up, step up into their power as loving human beings. People learn best by example, and we long for good ones to follow. So, be that example. Show your friends and neighbors what it means to be kind, loving, compassionate, and protective. Show them what it looks like to set clear boundaries, with love, respect, and an unshakable sense of self-worth.

That will be the legacy of Mr. Trumps presidency: a country full of people who know their own worth, who stand together to defend that worth and the planet we love. A country full of men and women who will not stand for racism, sexism, divisionism, or anything that smacks of values other than love, acceptance, compassion, and peace.

We do not have to follow a bad example. We are leaders of ourselves. The power is ours to create the world we want with every interaction. 

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Unfiltered Thoughts on Creating Your Reality

Creating your own reality does not mean that you decide what you want, imagine every detail, wave your magic wand, and BANG! You wake up to the world you created, whole and complete.

At least it doesn’t mean that for me. And I suspect it doesn’t mean that for a lot…dare I say, most….people.

Instead, creating your own reality really happens in the small choices you make every day, moment to moment, about what you will and won’t believe, what you will and won’t give your attention and focus to, what you will and won’t allow into your life.

A shift happened inside me at some point in the last two years. I decided to just believe whatever I want to. A big, ole F you to anyone who thought I was nuts, stupid, gullible, or childish. I had long been drawn to “magickal” things and ideas…energy manipulation, manifestation, moving sideways along alternate realities, faeries, tree beings, and on and on. I was afraid to surrender to what I feared some would view as a child-like indulgence of imagination, especially since I was heavily invested in being the smart, studious girl I had earned a reputation for being. Smart girls and faeries did not go together in my world. But, little by little, I began to see that I could re-write the story of myself. I wasn’t stuck being the character I had created for myself. Just like a figure in a story, I could erase parts and change them. So, that’s what I have been doing.

It all really started with learning to accept certain things about myself, and peel away things that I had taken on, but that no longer suited me. For example, I have always loved knowing how things work. It’s a near-biological need to understand why this happens when I pull, push, twist, or throw that. That part of me has helped me begin to understand how to get what I want, how to manipulate the laws that govern our physical plane to move myself in the direction I want to go. For me, it is truly no different from understanding why my car goes when I push on the gas pedal (although some things are more important for me to retain than others…lol) Accepting my need to understand meant that I could strip away my feelings of nosiness, guilt, even shame, for probing into things that some considered none of my business, or that led me to information that was not always backed up by scientific research.  I do dearly love research, but I found that only accepting things that had a scientific backing no longer served me. So I let it go.

The work of accepting myself and stripping away things that are not myself led to moments of being allowed to glimpse the Mystery. I had what I have since called a Waterfall moment, when it felt like my head opened up and pure loving energy flowed in. The experience last for about 15 minutes, and it changed me. I started to see things out of the corner of my eye. I found Reiki and my friend Laura, who has mentored me and loved me as friend, sister, and child for lifetimes. I began to hear music in the still dark. I began to notice things about others that were different from my memory of them.  I began to find that if I sent loving energy to someone who was being rude or mean to me, they often came back either entirely changed or changed toward me. And I began to believe my eyes and ears and intuition.

In each moment that I see, hear, or sense something that is outside the norm, I find that I have a split-second decision to make: do I trust this or do I not trust this. Do I accept this as real or do I not accept this as real. It comes down to an almost subconscious choice to trust myself and the Universe.  But I can make that choice because I did all the other work, all the small, slow steps leading up to this. The Veil is parting wider for me because I chose each time the opportunity presented itself to look to the other side and not turn my back. When I heard the voice and felt the waves of energy from my Tree friends, I opened my heart and hugged them with my arms, even though I felt silly the first few times and wondered if I was losing my mind. I did not turn my back on Them and pretend I didn’t hear. And the first time I felt that an animal had a message for me, I accepted it for truth and went about trying to figure out what the message was. And when I saw a flit of iridescent wings and an echo of giggles, I stood in wonder and thanks for the gift of having seen my first faery since childhood. For every new Mystery glimpsed, I offer thanks, and I refuse to turn my back any more. This is how I create my reality. This is how you will create your reality, too.

Acknowledge what you want. Devote your attention to looking for the things you want. Be aware of what is reality for others, for it could impact you, too, especially in the beginning, but do not allow yourself to be drawn into their version of what is true. It’s like being aware that there are other tv channels playing other things, but since you don’t want to watch those other channels, they cease to mean anything significant to you.

You will find whatever you look for. I promise.

Shared from Seth Godin, “It’s Not My Problem”

I get Seth Godin’s daily blog post in my email each morning. This morning’s piece wanted to be shared around. 

 

“It’s not my problem”

But what if it was?

What if the apparently intractable cultural issues that you take for granted were instead seen as problems on your desk, things you could influence?

What if the rules others take for granted are seen by you and your team as standards you can change?

What if we take the responsibility instead of waiting for it to be offered?

 

http://sethgodin.typepad.com/seths_blog/2017/05/its-not-my-problem.html

 

Made me think.

The Importance of Art

Those who cannot remember the past are condemned to repeat it. ~ George Santayana

notebook and coffee

 

About a year ago, maybe a bit longer, I started to hear my intuition say, “Write that story”.

I have always (rather secretly) considered myself a writer. I daydreamed…so very quietly, way back in the hinterlands of my imagination…of seeing my name in print. The dream was so big, so bright, that I couldn’t look directly at it. It seemed so far out of reach, and it seemed like I should be doing something so much more important with my mind, my energy than writing stories and poetry. I believed the faded voices of my teachers and other adults who told me I needed to use my intellect to BE something…doctor, lawyer, activist, teacher…something big that would change the world and move it closer to the ideal I knew it could be.  But I couldn’t choose a path (because I didn’t want any of those paths, and they were not for me). And I beat myself endlessly for it. Until a few years ago when I gradually started to adjust to the idea that I could be, do, and have what   I   wanted. Full stop.

It hasn’t been an easy adjustment. I keep noticing that, while I love and admire and completely understand the value of other artists’ and creatives’ work in the world, I have not been able to accept that my own work is valuable and necessary in the same way.  I had an epiphany this weekend, though.

It was born of a discussion with my husband, as so many of my most valuable insights are. We were talking about how when one country invades another, one of the first things they often do is burn or destroy the art and culture of the invaded land. As we talked about why, it started to really sink in that the art and culture of a people is how they remember their emotions. And not just one country, but the world… the whole world does this.

As humans, we can only hold so much emotion in one lifetime. It would be too overwhelming, too paralyzing to hold all that in our consciousness. I see people all the time who are burnt out or desensitized by trying to feel compassion for all the things in this world that deserve compassion and trying to care about all the things that need to be cared about. They can’t help but compartmentalize…”This isn’t happening to me, so I can’t look at that right now.” It’s human nature; it’s a necessary survival instinct, especially in our current culture.  We all feel the need to distance ourselves from the pain, and even the joy of others because it is just so overwhelming to feel it all.  But there is a risk inherent in doing this: we become unable to empathize with others who have different experiences than our own.

Why is that a risk? Because in a world of almost 9 billion people, those with vastly different lives from ours are everywhere, and humans are well known to develop profound fears of what they don’t know and don’t understand. And fear of the unknown and different is one of the underlying causes of almost every major social ill known to mankind.

So, what does this have to do with the importance of artists? The answer lies, for me, in a definition I once heard of Art: Art is anything that evokes a strong emotional reaction. Art reminds us of emotions we have forgotten. It allows us to step into the shoes of another for a moment, to feel their pain or joy or giddiness or sorrow. It plunges us into empathy. We begin to connect with each other again. And do you know what happens when we do that? Of course you do. We begin to treat each other with greater compassion and understanding. And do you know what happens when we do that? We raise the vibration of the entire planet.

Many of us believe we are here to anchor Love into Mother Earth at this time, to raise Her vibration to a level that is more harmonious, closer to Love, for the good of Her and all Her inhabitants. Just like with any cause or organization, there are lots of roles to fill. There are the Activists, who go out and march and write letters and make phone calls. They remind us we have to take action, to implement what we believe and make it a fact of life for all of us, not just those who can speak. There are the Healers and Teachers. They ensure that we are able to return to the field again and again. They remind Body and Soul and Mind of what needs to be done and how to do it. There are the Organizers and the Farmers and the Nurturers.

And I wanted to help, but I could not find my place among them, until I realized that Artists are as vital to the cause of Anchoring Love as any other role…of course we are…because Artists remind us of what history felt like.

So, gradually, I am settling into my place as a Keeper of Memory, a Guardian of Emotion. This is my role in the changing world, my specific lightworker job. It is my honor, and my duty. It’s what I came here to be and do. And do it, I will.

 

Staying in Your Own Lane, and Kari Samuels’ May Energy Forecast

Have you ever noticed that when you’re driving, if you look in any direction other than straight ahead, you start to veer in that direction?

The same holds true in your daily life. I’ve noticed that when I start to watch more news, read more articles or blogs or whatever about how awful the world is, and how everyone in it is doomed! doomed! doomed!, the more I start to actually feel that that’s true.  On the other hand, if I filter my Facebook newsfeed to only include positive stories, uplifting stories, I begin to feel that the world is a miraculous and wonderful place, and that good things are waiting around every corner for me. And, since I WANT to feel that good things are raining from the sky just for me, and I have almost total control over what I see, read, and watch, I can feel good about life most of the time.

Staying in one’s own lane means focusing on what’s in front of you and not being distracted by things that are not relevant to your life or beliefs.  It doesn’t mean there isn’t any other traffic, only that for your own safety and well-being, eyes front is the way to go.  It also doesn’t mean that you shouldn’t try to make things better, only that the way to do that is to come back to the micro level – your own life – in order to effect the most profound change.

For example, I saw on the news a few days ago a story about a 15-year-old black boy who was shot leaving a party by a police office, for no apparent reason. The first thing I felt was a sense of total hopelessness and anger. How in the world could we ever change how that particular storyline is going?

I was thinking too big, though, and not staying in my lane! In my lane, I treat every person kindly, regardless of their skin color, sex, age, or any other external factor over which that person has no control. Staying in my lane means that I smile at the white grocery store cashier and at the black girl stocking shelves in the back of the store, at the little girl carrying some flowers she just bought with her own money and at her harried-looking mother who stubbornly refuses to smile back. THIS is how we effect change on a large scale…all of us deciding to stay in our lane and make decisions on how to treat ourselves and the other people in our day-to-day lives.  No law or policy change is going to accomplish what we can do individually to immediately change our lives and those around us.

 

On another note, after April’s turbulent energy, it was refreshing to watch Kari Samuels’ forecast for May.  I am a huge fan of numerology, and Kari makes it fun and easy, combining numerology and astrology for a well-rounded, uplifting message every month.

So, watch Kari, and remember to stay in your lane!

 

 

Finding Comfort in the Wisdom of Joanna Macy

Many of you will already be familiar with the work of Joanna Macy. Indeed, I have run across her name many times while reading my friend Laura’s blog (You can read it here.)

Yesterday, while browsing a new video subscription site called Gaia.com, I encountered a video of Ms Macy discussing what she calls The Great Turning. Because it is a paid site, I can’t link to the video here, but I am linking to her website regarding the subject at the end of this post.

The Great Turning is the name she has given to the range of events and paradigm shifts we are collectively undergoing right now. I had been feeling pretty upset and confused about what I ought to do to help, how to contribute to the change. I felt that I have my own role to play, but I was also wondering if not taking on an activist-type role was hiding on my part or something else. Even though I had written a post not long ago about finding my place, it seemed like this was an altogether different thing. Was I shirking my duty as a citizen of the Earth by not marching or calling my congressmen or posting and reposting every scary and outrageous thing that popped up on my Facebook newsfeed? Was I participating in spiritual bypassing, as some of my online friends suggested that some of us were?

In watching Joanna’s video talk on The Great Turning and its three dimensions, I began to feel aligned again. I began to remember the epiphany I had experienced around my place in the world and my mission here, and I began to understand the specifics of what my mission entails. This morning, I consulted my Council (my Guides, Angels, and others upon whom I rely for guidance), and they told me to focus on what I am already focusing on: learning to deeply and completely love myself and teaching others to do the same. I can be part of the shift in perspective and values that Joanna addresses in the third dimension of the Turning by spreading this message and teaching this shift.  For how can we call the Goddess back to the Earth if we do not love Her and the aspect of Her we find in ourselves?

I wanted to share with all of you Joanna Macy’s website regarding The Great Turning. It has been a wealth of knowledge, clarity and comfort for me, and I hope it will be for you, too.

http://www.joannamacy.net/three-dimensions-of-the-great-turning.html

 

A Meditation for Inauguration Day

I discovered Meditative Minds on YouTube this morning. Their chanting video of the mantra Akal Mahakal seems perfect for today. It is a mantra which is intended to eradicate fear from the conscious and subconscious, particularly the fear of death. Try doing a Reiki self-treatment or simply swaying with your hands over your heart while listening.

Polarities and the Vision

For several weeks now, I have felt a pervasive sense of sadness and disappointment in what seemed to be an overall lack of empathy and kindness in the world. Between politics, the news, Facebook posts, and overheard conversations in the grocery store, it seemed like everyone had not just forgotten the Golden Rule, but was actively engaged in hurting as many others as possible.

I have worked very hard for most of the past year to find the tender-hearted child I was once and coax her out of hiding. I need her sweet nature and loving spirit to help me do the work I came here to do. The tools I have used to open up that part of myself again work marvelously, and my heart has bloomed in ways I could not have foreseen. I feel softer, more vulnerable, more loving….more Feminine.

I forgot how much it fucking hurts to be that open.

Thinking about how out of sorts I felt, I realized there were two problems:

1) I had expectations that people would behave in a certain way, which always leads to trouble.

2) I am an idealist, through and through, from my INFP Myers-Briggs profile to my Sagittarius sun sign to my Numerology Life Path 7.  And, as an idealist, I tend to be deeply disappointed to find that others do not share my empathy and ideals.

I have learned a lot since I sent that tender-hearted part of myself into hiding, though. I have the insights and understanding of a woman who has spent time – 20+ years – actively getting to know herself, understand her strengths and shortcomings, and how the world works. I can use that knowledge to get on with the business of being my own unique self.

To understand the AHA! moment I had around this whole situation, it would help to explain a little of my philosophy about how the Universe operates, and why we come back to this Earth school to keep learning stuff.

I believe most (maybe all) of us have lived many, many lifetimes on this Earth. I believe we are doing this for one or both of two main reasons: to experience polarity, or opposites, and to help Earth heal by expanding and anchoring the energy of Love.  This Universe we find ourselves in is just one of many, each with its own unique rules. What makes this one special is that everything has an opposite here. In a Universe of polarity, one cannot experience anything without also experiencing its opposite. There is no black without white, light without dark, right without wrong, love without fear, and so on. It is an intense, visceral Universe, full of emotional and physical sensation found nowhere else.  When we choose to incarnate again on this plane, we do so because we still want to experience those polarities, some aspect or nuance of them and, sometimes, because we want to help raise the vibration of the planet.

So, what I know now, as a 43 year old woman that I didn’t know as a 6 year old girl, is:

1) Everyone here is having their own experience for their own reasons. Some are also here to help raise the vibration of the planet, but some are not.  Their role in my life is not to reflect my ideals, but to reflect where my ideals are not being implemented so I know where my work still lies.

2) My idealism is not a flaw. I don’t have to “fix” it. I can’t do what I need to do without it. My idealism is my gift, my superpower. I have been given a vision of what life could be like to sustain me and remind me why I keep coming back, aside from the wonderful food, sex, friendship, laughter, and the planet Herself. I am here to help raise the vibration of the planet, so that She can heal, and She can move through a troubled Universal time and claim Her place in the Cosmos. Earth is as much a living organism as we are, albeit with systems we do not fully understand. I am here, with my idealism, to hold the Vision.

I don’t plan to learn to deal with the ugliness I see. I can’t let myself become desensitized again. My plan is to shift my focus to the beauty and kindness that exists in equal, if not greater measure all around me, so I have the strength to hold the ideal and share it when others forget what we are aiming for.

My sorrow and disappointment was a result of my forgetting what I am here to do: choose Love over fear and model that for others.  Remembering that makes everything seem so much simpler.

When Chaos Knocks, Answer With Love

This morning, the shock is echoing around the world. Things feel dangerous, chaotic, shaky, seismic. People are afraid, grief-stricken, stunned, speechless. 

But, consider this:

My friend, Laura, has said many times that the greatest change comes out of chaos.

Chaos holds all possibilities.

And the energy on Planet Earth right now is one of polarization, uncovering secrets, and shining light into the dark corners. We are witnessing the manifestation of this on a global scale. Our beloved Gaia is letting us know, as loudly and clearly as She can, that things cannot continue on in the way they have been.

chaos

Think about how our emotions manifest as physical pain. We know we need to leave the soul-sucking job and move in the direction of our dreams, yet we do nothing. Our energetic bodies react first by making us angry, irritable, and out of sorts. Yet we continue. Our bodies then start to get in on the messaging with aches that are out of proportion, pains that have no apparent root, we get sick more often and it takes longer to get well. Yet, we still ignore the knowing inside us. Finally, our bodies break down, refusing to work another day, walk another step, lift another box or pen or telephone receiver. We cannot, physically continue in the job that shrivels our soul. Our body has forced us to stop, notice, take action. There is no other choice.

That is where we are as citizens of the US, and, truly, the world.

Our collective energy has finally given us an unmistakable sign to wake up, embrace the love and change and peace we say we espouse, defend those more helpless than us, rise up in righteous anger to say, “No! We will not stand for this!”  We can no longer sit passively by, not stepping fully into our Divine selves, fearing judgement or ridicule or failure. Our failure is in not standing by our principles. We don’t need the President to give us permission to do this, or do it for us. We do this in the small moments of our every day, in each interaction.

When we choose love, compassion, and peace over division, hatred and violence, we are taking action to stop the descent and turn it around. 

More than ever before, the Earth needs you to uncover your Light. Shine it on the people you encounter at the grocery store, both the guy whose minivan is covered in anti-everyone-but-white-men stickers and the Hispanic family who stands too close to you in line. Shine it on your friends and loved ones, but also on the coworker who tells sexist jokes in the breakroom (and take appropriate boundary-setting actions). Shine it on the people who agree with you and those who don’t. Shine it on your leaders, your bosses, the salespeople, the drivers who are on the road with you. Shine it on everyone you meet, everyone you see, everyone in the world.  The Field of Infinite Possibilities that is the chaos we see right now will react by manifesting the loving, peaceful world we want.

We need the catalyst that is the election of a man so many people despise. We needed him to be elected. We needed this wake up call to change. Would we have felt so angry, so ready to fight for the people who have been targeted in this man’s rhetoric, if he had not been elected? or would it have been business -slow, bigoted, painful business- as usual? Nothing has changed in this country with the election of Donald Trump. Things have only been outlined in neon, flashing yellow, things that were already truths of this country.  Nothing is new. It is only out in the open now. And you cannot change where you’re going until you know where you are.

Now, we know where we are. We know where we stand. And it has never been more true that we need, each of us, to find in ourselves the love, beauty, and peace we want to see in the world. Become that which you most desire. Embody those ideals you hold most dear. Your doing so will cause untold ripples in the fabric of the Universe, touching those who are still afraid, those almost ready to stand up, step up into their power as loving human beings. People learn best by example, and we long for good ones to follow. So, be that example. Show your friends and neighbors what it means to be kind, loving, compassionate, and protective. Show them what it looks like to set clear boundaries, with love, respect, and an unshakable sense of self-worth.

That will be the legacy of Mr. Trumps presidency: a country full of people who know their own worth, who stand together to defend that worth and the planet we love. A country full of men and women who will not stand for racism, sexism, divisionism, or anything that smacks of values other than love, acceptance, compassion, and peace.

We do not have to follow a bad example. We are leaders of ourselves. The power is ours to create the world we want with every interaction.