Reiki, Chakras, and Past Lives!

your own personal frequency

Multiple In-Person Classes Now Forming!

If you are in the Goshen, or Elkhart, Indiana area, and have been looking for classes for Reiki levels I or II, a beginner Chakras class, or how to access and read the Akashic Records, great news:

January/February 2018 classes are now forming!

Reiki level I or II is for you if:

You are interested in a hands-off healing modality that encourages one’s own body to heal itself

You have been told you have a “healing touch”

You have been looking for something that is as much spiritual path as it is a healing one

Reiki level I will allow you to practice this gentle, non-invasive healing technique on yourself and others directly. Level I certification is $125, with a $25 discount if paid two weeks in advance of the class date. 5 hrs

Reiki level II will allow you to uplevel your Reiki knowledge and abilities to send healing energy to far-off places, people, events, and circumstances. Level II certification is $250 with a $50 discount if paid two weeks in advance of the class date. 5 hrs

Chakras for Beginners is an introductory class to familiarize you with what the chakras are, their basic correspondences, and how to work with them to heal your life.  Attendees will receive a copy of my beautiful chakra guide, as well as a packet of resources for further study. This class is $40.  2 hrs

And, if you have ever wanted to know if a past life event or circumstance is affecting your current lifetime, the Learning to Read the Akashic Records class is for you! In this class, you will learn how to access the Records, the rules for working in them, what kinds of information you can find there, and you will be guided through your first experience in them with a guided meditation.  This class is $125 with a $25 discount if paid two weeks in advance of class date. 5 hrs


For more information, or to sign up for one or more of these classes, please email me at


Kari Samuels’ 2018 Forecast

Happy New Year! I hope you all had a safe, happy, and restful holiday. I certainly did, spending most of it together with my husband curled up in the warmth of our cozy home. It was a deeply restorative time for us, full of reflections on 2017 and daydreaming about 2018.

To help us best work with the flow of 2018’s energies, we turned to Kari Samuels, whose forecasts I regularly share here on this blog. She published her 2018 forecast just in time for our purposes, and I am sharing it here with you so that you are aware of some of the major themes for this year.

I hope you find it as useful as we did!

Goodbye, 2017, and Thank you!

At the end of every year, like so many other folks around the world, I make it a point to look back and take stock of the happenings, the lessons, and the joys of that year. This usually happens around my birthday, which was last week, but this year, I waited until the last week of the year. I hesitated to write anything public, but, as ever, I hope to be an inspiration to someone by sharing my own story. Besides, parts of this journey have been made public here this year, so I feel it important to share the rest of it.

At the beginning of the year, I made a list of intentions, something I had never done before. Along with my usual habit of setting a Word of the Year, and a newer habit of reviewing my Core Desired Feelings (from the book The Desire Map by Danielle LaPorte), I was really pleased with how it worked for me to actually write a list of intentions based around how I wanted to feel during the year, as well as what I hoped to accomplish.

Getting a new job and moving house were top of the list for 2017, and prospects were good, numerologically speaking. 2017 has been a 1 Universal year, signifying beginnings and planting seeds, and a 6 Personal year for me, signifying a focus on relationships, friendships, home, and one’s sense of belonging.

In February, I started a new job. It wasn’t the job I thought I wanted…I also interviewed for a job at the library at the same time, and man, did I think I wanted that one! I mean, it’s the LIBRARY! But, in each interview, I paid special attention to the environment and people I would be working with. Many of you know that my spirituality is one of the most important aspects of life to me, and Reiki is a huge part of that.  When I interviewed at each place, I mentioned Reiki to see what the response would be. In one interview, the interviewers seemed interested and wanted to know more. In the other, while the interviewers didn’t physically roll their eyes, I could feel the energetic eye-roll. And that’s how I ended up in my current position at a company that doesn’t seem as glamorous to me as the library, but my department is filled with 5 beautiful new friends! It is an exceptional work environment. Best of all, each has some level of interest in the spiritual aspects of life, and I even taught one coworker/friend how to access the Akashic Records and attuned her to Level 1 Reiki!! This job allows me to bring my spiritual practices to work, and that is more important to me than just about anything else. My gratitude for this place is deep and powerful.

The new job led to increased income, which meant that we could start to look for a new place to live. I had long loved my friend, Laura’s house in Goshen, just one street over from our apartment. I knew she and her husband would be moving soon, but I believed there was no way we could rent their house, due to the landlord’s very strict no-pet policy. At the beginning of this year, we had three cats: Maggie, Ellie, and Sasha, and we were not looking to re-home them. But early in the year, I believe it was March, Laura texted me and said that her landlord might consider pet-owners who also loved the huge, gorgeous garden she had created. I was over the moon!! I had reworked our budget numerous times to be sure I understood how much money we could spend on a new place, and I knew this one was in our budget. It also perfectly matched the list I had written the previous year of what I wanted in a new home. (Even down to the bathtub…which our new house did not have until we shifted timelines. In a previous conversation with Laura, we had talked about how much we missed baths because neither of us had a bathtub in our homes. But, when the house became available, it suddenly had a bathtub! I was incredibly grateful, as that was one of my non-negotiables for a new house!)

Making the move from an approximately 650 sq ft apartment that was created by chopping up the interior of a beautiful old home to our new home, which is easily double that and shared with no one but our kitties, was an emotional and spiritual journey, as well as a physical one. I had chosen the word Receive at the beginning of 2017 for my word of the year, and it was such a challenge to learn to embody that! Many of you will remember the post I wrote called Healing My Memories of Home, in which I shared about the places I grew up and what it would mean to me to move into this beautiful house.  Laura shared that post on her blog, too, and so many of her readers commented with encouraging words, and several sent donations! I was so blown away by their generous spirits, but I really struggled with that Receiving energy. It was very hard for me to just accept the gifts and loans with an open heart. My first instinct, in fact, was to refuse the gifts! Silly me…I was getting just what I asked for! That took a lot of working through in conversation with my husband, Laura, and my Guides. I can say that, while it is easier, I have chosen for 2018 a word that also holds the energy of Receiving so that I can continue to work on embodying that energy.


jason in the old apt on moving day

Jason in the living room of the old place on Moving Day



kitchen at the old place

Partial view of the kitchen of the old place, including the back door, which was our main entry point. The doorway to the bathroom is on the other side of the fridge.

double rainbow on moving day

Rainbow spotted on the day of our move, letting me know all is well! You can just see a second rainbow above the first!

After months of shifting enormous amounts of energy, we finally moved into our new home on July 1! We have been here for 6 months, and it is so much more than I ever imagined I could find or feel in a home. There is such a sense of sanctuary here. The garden, of course, help to create that, and the garden is what I thought would help move the most energy in me. And while it certainly has deeply affected me, the house itself has had the most profound effect so far. Living in it is like being perpetually soaked in a drawing salve. It pulls up to the surface old junk that needs to be released to make room for new energy. Jason is getting the brunt of that effect in the physical realm right now. Two weeks before we moved in, he hurt his knee, and has not yet healed from that. He has been all but confined to the house since we moved in. The way it is working in me is less tangible, but no less real. Abilities, interests, and talents that had been barely a whisper in the back of mind before we moved have come roaring to the forefront since the move. My emotions have been more accessible, although the chaos of that part of me opening up has been hard to bear, some days. I find it hard to process, let alone articulate the level of consciousness that has opened up for both of us since moving here. Just last night, Jason and I were talking about how we feel as though living in this house has accelerated all the growth we had begun before moving here, and is rapidly propelling us into a new life that we had previously not quite dared to imagine. I can’t overstate how powerful this new home has been in our lives. It is not just a sanctuary, it is an incubator, a cleansing retreat, and a sacred grove, all rolled into one building and grounds.


Front door of the new place, complete with lush garden path ❤ 


The kitchen area of the new place. What a difference!

The other major intention I set for 2017 was to grow my business and my blog. The blog went from 37 followers in January to 68 as of yesterday.  A modest amount of growth, to be sure, but strong encouragement for me to continue! The business is trickier. There are so many underlying issues for me around wealth, making a living in a non-traditional way, my own sense of worthiness, and what my purpose is in the world and how to best express it. Outwardly, there has not been much growth. Oh, but inwardly!

I picture it like this: my beliefs around money are like a plant with extremely deep, hardy roots. Long, thick tap roots that suck the life out of all other surrounding plants. For many years, I have hacked at these roots, chopping them off at what I thought was the very bottom of the tenacious things. But they always grew back because I wasn’t really getting to the bottom. I wasn’t getting the whole root. There were rocks that had to be pulled out first, there were scorpions and snakes that stung and bit, and finally, there was me pulling with all my might on the upper part of the root, where it would break off and I would have to start all over. 2017 has been a year of learning how to get all the root out. I am addressing my sense of unworthiness from a different angle, gently, with patience and love. I am releasing childhood money mantras that I never chose and replacing them with ones I do choose, that serve me and help me remember that my Universe is loving and supportive.  I am patiently, playfully digging around the root, gently lifting out the dirt on all sides, removing rocks, encouraging snakes and scorpions to move on to better homes, exposing it all to the purifying power of the Sun and the gentle healing of the Moon. So, while outwardly, not much is happening, and, indeed, what is happening can look confusing, haphazard, or unstable, inwardly, mountains are being moved a teaspoonful at a time.

Those were the main foci for me of 2017. I wrote a list of things I accomplished this year before I went to work on intentions for 2018, and I was impressed with myself! I deeply encourage you to make a list of all the things you did this year, too! Celebrating our accomplishments is highly underrated!

Turning toward 2018,  I mentioned choosing a new word that also embodies the energy of Receive from last year. This year’s word is Breathe. The mantra that I will use with it is: Breathe in to Receive, Breathe out to Release.  I want to embody that cycle of giving and receiving, bringing in and letting go. I have also chosen some new Core Desired Feelings for the year: Connected (held over from previously), Clear, Aligned, Creative, Playful, and Sexy. Powerful almost made the list, but I felt the others more accurately captured what I am going for.

My intentions for this year center in large part around my work in the world. I hope to begin to create a solid foundation for a business of my own that enables me to teach what I know, share what I’ve learned, and help others see themselves more clearly and lovingly. I intend this to manifest as classes, both in person and online, and private sessions of Reiki healing, Akashic Records work, and intuitive counseling, but I have learned to simply follow where my intuition goes, so it may end up looking quite different.

My other major intentions revolve around my physical health. I intend to be as clear a channel for Life or Source energy as I can be, and that means some changes to the way I live and treat my physical body. I have lived my whole life 90% in my head, and the process of drawing that energy down into the rest of my chakras and my physical body feels like a challenging new journey, but one which I am eager to undertake.

2018 feels like a good time to focus on these things. The numerology, which I have just begun to look into, seems fortuitous and exciting. I am in a great place to begin from, and I have tons of supportive and understanding friends, both physical and non-physical. In this last week of 2017-a VERY good year!- I feel hopeful, peaceful, joyful, and grateful. I am ready to go on to the next round, and I thank you for joining me on the journey.

With deepest gratitude and love, Happy New Year!

Kari Samuels’ December Forecast

I look forward to Kari’s forecasts every month, but this one seems to be especially significant for me. This is my birthday month, and always a time of reflection and re-evaluation, but those energies seem more intense this year, and indeed, the astrological weather for me, personally, is more intense since Jupiter, my ruling planet, made himself cozy in Scorpio, my moon sign.

Kari’s advice this month is very helpful to me, and I hope to you, too, as we navigate the last few weeks of 2017.

Slow down, be extra good to yourself, and have a glorious holiday season!

Let Play Time Commence!

Somewhere along in my 43 years, I totally forgot how to play and also how important and FUN! it is. I have been getting the message for quite some time that play is essential to my further growth. It has been a little bit unnatural for me, but I think I am starting to get the hang of it a little, and I wanted to share my experiences so far, just in case it might help inspire someone else.

Fun Time, Step One:
Last month, I had a Faery reading from my lovely friend, Laura Bruno, in which she relayed that the Faeries wished I would play more, and that it was essential to healing for both me and my husband. In the same reading, they recommended I activate the Faery Referral Network (explained in a couple of Laura’s posts, one of which you can find here.), which I did, not knowing exactly how that would work, but remaining open to the wonder of it all. I began to do small things that I thought the Faeries would like: adding little stone pathways to their set up in my enclosed porch, as well as tiny Christmas trees, playing music more often, and allowing my inner little girl to come out and slide around in her fuzzy socks on our gloriously slippery wood floors.  I also began talking to them in a nonchalant sort of way.

Then, last weekend, in passing, I mentioned to Jason that I would love to have the board game Clue. We had been discussing games and which ones we like, which ones we have, and what other kinds of games we would like to try. We both agreed that we love Clue, and decided to keep an eye out for it, as it often goes on sale around the holidays.  This conversation happened on Sunday, I believe. Monday morning, I came to work, and one of the salesmen here had brought in some things which his wife wanted to find new homes for. Lo and behold! There, sat a game of Clue! Thanks, Faery Referral Network!

Fun Time, Step Two:
For several weeks, a few friends at work had been talking about getting an office pet. We discussed several kinds of pet, but finally decided a fish might be nice. One friend already had several betta fish, and recommended them. Now, I am really not a fish person. I usually like a pet that I can, well, pet. But, first one person brought in a fish, then another person…and I LOVED them! I decided over the weekend to join the club and get a fish of my own. Let me tell you, if you have never really looked at the fish for sale in a large box store, you will want to brace yourself for the experience. I was nearly in tears at how sad and depressed they looked, how tiny their little bowls were, and how dirty they were. It took a moment to gather myself, but when I did, I spotted the lovely little one below.


Leonardo da Vinci all flared out in his new home.

Let me tell you something: I was absolutely wrong about how much I would love this little fish! The connection was instant and very strong, unlike anything I had ever experienced before. I know this little guy is in my life to teach me things, but honestly, I don’t even care what it is! (Soooo deeply unlike me, with my constant, insatiable need to know the hows, whys, and wherefores…) It came to me as I was carrying him out of the store and into his new life that his name should be Leonardo da Vinci. And so it is!

Fun Time, Step Three:
For a few of the last several years, I could not bear the sound of most music. For most of my life, I have loved music. I sang in a choir from the time I was 14 right through high school, often performing as a solo part of the choir and competing in solo competitions. But a few years ago, I realized listening to the radio made me feel irritable, contracted, sometimes even angry. I stopped listening to any music at all. Lately, though, I have missed it and felt the need to add music back to my life. I still find it hard to tolerate music with lyrics, so I started by finding pieces I liked on Pandora, and searching out more by the same artist. One of the artists I ran across was Lindsay Stirling, a brilliant violinist who dances while she plays! She is also appearing right now in Dancing With the Stars, one of my very, very favorite television shows, and one of the only ones I watch. Woohoo! Double score for Fun Time! I have been devouring all the videos of her dancing, playing, anything, really, and I wanted to share one with you:

In this video, Lindsay and Derek Hough (one of my favorite dancers from DWTS) dance a mesmerizing Argentine Tango. The video also has overtones of some of the spiritual concepts I hold most dear and useful. I wonder if you see them when you watch, too 🙂

With so much encouragement from the Universe and my new Faery friends, I am finding it easier and easier to let myself relax into some play time each day.  Here is a last bit of encouragement from another Faery friend, Tania Marie. She just posted a lovely collection of quotes and photos all centered around play.

Have Fun, my friends!




When Chaos Knocks, Answer With Love

This piece popped up in my Facebook memories this morning, and it seemed like a good time to re-share it.  It’s been a year since the election that shook the country, and our call to action is louder than ever. 

This morning, the shock is echoing around the world. Things feel dangerous, chaotic, shaky, seismic. People are afraid, grief-stricken, stunned, speechless. 

But, consider this:

My friend, Laura, has said many times that the greatest change comes out of chaos.

Chaos holds all possibilities.

And the energy on Planet Earth right now is one of polarization, uncovering secrets, and shining light into the dark corners. We are witnessing the manifestation of this on a global scale. Our beloved Gaia is letting us know, as loudly and clearly as She can, that things cannot continue on in the way they have been.


Think about how our emotions manifest as physical pain. We know we need to leave the soul-sucking job and move in the direction of our dreams, yet we do nothing. Our energetic bodies react first by making us angry, irritable, and out of sorts. Yet we continue. Our bodies then start to get in on the messaging with aches that are out of proportion, pains that have no apparent root, we get sick more often and it takes longer to get well. Yet, we still ignore the knowing inside us. Finally, our bodies break down, refusing to work another day, walk another step, lift another box or pen or telephone receiver. We cannot, physically continue in the job that shrivels our soul. Our body has forced us to stop, notice, take action. There is no other choice.

That is where we are as citizens of the US, and, truly, the world.

Our collective energy has finally given us an unmistakable sign to wake up, embrace the love and change and peace we say we espouse, defend those more helpless than us, rise up in righteous anger to say, “No! We will not stand for this!”  We can no longer sit passively by, not stepping fully into our Divine selves, fearing judgement or ridicule or failure. Our failure is in not standing by our principles. We don’t need the President to give us permission to do this, or do it for us. We do this in the small moments of our every day, in each interaction.

When we choose love, compassion, and peace over division, hatred and violence, we are taking action to stop the descent and turn it around. 

More than ever before, the Earth needs you to uncover your Light. Shine it on the people you encounter at the grocery store, both the guy whose minivan is covered in anti-everyone-but-white-men stickers and the Hispanic family who stands too close to you in line. Shine it on your friends and loved ones, but also on the coworker who tells sexist jokes in the breakroom (and take appropriate boundary-setting actions). Shine it on the people who agree with you and those who don’t. Shine it on your leaders, your bosses, the salespeople, the drivers who are on the road with you. Shine it on everyone you meet, everyone you see, everyone in the world.  The Field of Infinite Possibilities that is the chaos we see right now will react by manifesting the loving, peaceful world we want.

We need the catalyst that is the election of a man so many people despise. We needed him to be elected. We needed this wake up call to change. Would we have felt so angry, so ready to fight for the people who have been targeted in this man’s rhetoric, if he had not been elected? or would it have been business -slow, bigoted, painful business- as usual? Nothing has changed in this country with the election of Donald Trump. Things have only been outlined in neon, flashing yellow, things that were already truths of this country.  Nothing is new. It is only out in the open now. And you cannot change where you’re going until you know where you are.

Now, we know where we are. We know where we stand. And it has never been more true that we need, each of us, to find in ourselves the love, beauty, and peace we want to see in the world. Become that which you most desire. Embody those ideals you hold most dear. Your doing so will cause untold ripples in the fabric of the Universe, touching those who are still afraid, those almost ready to stand up, step up into their power as loving human beings. People learn best by example, and we long for good ones to follow. So, be that example. Show your friends and neighbors what it means to be kind, loving, compassionate, and protective. Show them what it looks like to set clear boundaries, with love, respect, and an unshakable sense of self-worth.

That will be the legacy of Mr. Trumps presidency: a country full of people who know their own worth, who stand together to defend that worth and the planet we love. A country full of men and women who will not stand for racism, sexism, divisionism, or anything that smacks of values other than love, acceptance, compassion, and peace.

We do not have to follow a bad example. We are leaders of ourselves. The power is ours to create the world we want with every interaction. 

November Specials and Kari Samuels’ Forecast

Only a few days left for November’s Specials! Sessions can be scheduled for any time, but must be paid by November 30 for the special price!


Fall has crept in and curled up on our doorsteps, bringing chilly autumn air, turning leaves, and a hint of excitement, at least for me! Today is my personal, official start to holiday decorating! For the next month, there will be an ever-changing combination of fall and winter decor going up and coming down around our new home. I am definitely the sort of person who would keep holiday decorations up at least half the year!

This month’s specials are meant to address the need for clarity in a time of year when we may be much too busy to sit and listen for it ourselves, when family togetherness may mean relating to people we may not understand or get along with, and to prepare you for whatever changes you may want to make with the new year.


Oracle Card Reading: $22

First up is a 3 card Oracle card reading using Collette Baron-Reid’s gorgeous deck, Wisdom of the Oracle. This reading is meant to offer clarity around next steps in manifesting your desires. The reading is done via email, with a photo of the cards that were drawn and my interpretation of them. This also includes one follow up email answering any questions you may have regarding the reading. This is a deck I use almost every day and have a special connection to. I always get the answers I need when I use it!


30 Minute Past Life Reading: $44

Time spent with family can often mean interacting with people who, for whatever reason, rub you the wrong way.  If there doesn’t seem to be a logical reason for this to be so, it may be due to a past life experience with that person. This reading is designed to find out if that is the case, what the situation was, and heal the past life rift so that you can move forward in the present lifetime. Moving forward can mean connecting anew,  saying goodbye peacefully, or something in between.


30 Minute Chakra Reading: $55

Working with the chakras can be confusing if you don’t know where to start. In this reading, I will connect with your energetic field and “read” each of your seven main chakras. At each chakra point, I see dreamlike images meant to show the state of the chakra, what might be blocking it, and what steps to take to begin to heal it. All that is conveyed to you in a lengthy email or phone call, if you’d prefer. (I often find that clients prefer the email version so that they can go back to it later.) This reading will give you a place to begin working with your energetic system, a snapshot of the health of that system, and ideas specific to you in terms of healing and balancing.  It includes one follow up email to answer any questions you may have (unless you prefer the phone version, in which case, I will answer your questions at that time).

As always, I can be reached via email if you have any questions, or if you would like to schedule any of these specials. Prices are good if paid before November 30, 2017, but the session can be scheduled for any time you like. They can even be gifted!


Kari Samuels’ Energy Forecast

I have been posting Kari Samuels’ energy forecasts for the last several months, and I find that she is so spot on, and her advice is so very helpful. I hope you are enjoying them as much as I am!

Happy November!


Kari Samuels’ October Forecast

Welcome to October!
It’s officially Autumn, my very favorite season. Kari brings her usual gentle cheerfulness to this month’s forecast, the theme of which seems to be relationships and learning to balance the needs of others with our own needs. This is an area of great growth potential for me, for sure.  Later in the month, the moon slips in to Scorpio (the sign the moon is in in my own birth chart), deepening everything.

Enjoy Kari’s beautifully articulated forecast, and have a wonderful October!

Unfiltered Thoughts on Creating the Business You Want

Hi, Everybody. Not long ago, I announced that I was re-launching my business under a new name. But, I have a confession to make: I have absolutely no idea what I am doing when it comes to creating a business.

I have made a couple of attempts. I have read mountains of literature, joined Facebook groups dedicated to Spiritual Entrepreneurs, talked endlessly with my husband and a few select friends about my doubts and misgivings, my hopes, and my ultimate dreams. Written pages and pages about what my ideal work day looks like. Visualized until I fall asleep in a stupor of delight at the images in my head. What I have not been able to do is get clients consistently.  (Should I even be wanting to “get clients”? If you read enough in those Spiritual Entrepreneur groups, you won’t think so. It’s almost as if getting clients is somehow nefarious and beside the point. It’s really difficult to have the time to help people, though, if you also have to work a 40 hour week and the boss gets to control your hours. What I want is to put out as much helpful material as possible and also be able to help one-on-one those women who need something more personal. It’s what I love and what I am good at. It’s what I have spent most of life learning to do.)

Perhaps this is my year. I like to think so. I have been steadily more and more successful at attracting what I want in almost every other aspect of my life, or else I have accepted that I need to leave it alone for now.  Not so with my work life. I feel the perpetual tug toward something beyond my 8-5, working-for-someone-else life. And I feel as though my dream is right around the corner, just waiting for me to notice it.

So, what’s the dream?


Ah, now that’s a good question! Here it is: I dream of lighting the way to joy for women who long for a deeper connection to themselves, their loved ones, and Source. I dream of doing that by teaching them everything I know, giving them every tool I have learned to use in my 25 years of reading, studying, practicing, and living.  I long to help them see themselves as beautiful, capable, brilliant, inherently loveable and worthy.  I long to see every woman relax into her own true self and strip away every single thing that does not serve her highest good. 

The other part of the dream is how I do that, which is the same way I stripped off my own depression and reclaim every day my own sense of loveability and worthiness: through finding and using the tools that are most helpful. For me, those are Reiki, working with the chakra system, meditation, journaling, using crystals, working with my Guides, my Higher Self, and other high vibrational Beings, and through talking with like-minded friends and teachers. I believe those same things can help everyone. I believe I can teach anyone to use them.

Where I get lost and bogged down into utter paralysis is the HOW. What do I do first? Am I just making too big a deal out of the How? Gardening is teaching me to start where I am.  Cut down the dead black-eyed susans next to the front door because driving up to my lovely home and seeing their blackened stalks every day makes me sad. So, clip, clip. Harvest tomatoes because they will rot if I don’t. Yummy salsa and tomato topping on beans and rice. Pull out the monster tomato plant because it is shading out my peppers. Out it comes.  My current dilemma stems from figuring out how to translate that to my work. Start where I am….Hence, this long and winding blog post, baring my heart and mind to the wide and wise world (wise was actually what came out when I tried to type wide… message there, I suspect.).

You might also ask what makes me so damn qualified to teach anyone anything? Yep, I have asked myself that one. But I have a great answer: What I teach has worked for me; it has worked for my husband; it has worked for friends; it is working still for all of us. And there is more that I know that you don’t yet know: the first time I tried to kill myself, I was 5 years old. in the kitchen, with a big bread knife that had a little hook on the end. That feeling never went away until 2014, when I was 40 years old. When it did, it was because I finally started actively using what I had spent over 20 years learning about. I started doing the work. And, in 3 years, I went from suicidal to full of joy, actively creating a life I want to LIVE, not die to get away from.

Even in my 8-5 day job, I have brought into my life a position where my co-workers are friends and connection with them feeds my soul in ways I never expected. But the work….the work is not what I am meant to be doing.  And we’ve circled back around to the current issue.

So, what to do? I know what I would recommend to a client.
1. Get Quiet: pull the plug on technological distractions like Facebook, email, Twitter, Instagram, etc. Disconnect from others so you can more clearly hear yourself.

2. Go Within: whatever your favorite form of meditation is, do that. Do it for as long as you can. Get your mind clear. And to that end…

3. Write: get out a notebook. Write at least 3 pages longhand with an actual pen whatever comes into your mind. DO NOT CENSOR! Write as fast as you can, not stopping until all 3 pages have been filled. Stream-of-consciousness writing pulls out all sorts of things you never knew were in your head.

4. If some kind of clarity is still not coming through by this point, you can either start over, talk to a trusted friend, or let it rest. Any of those options is perfectly ok. It can take more than once through this process to clear out enough of the built up junk in your brain – the clutter of to-dos, “news”, work and family obligations, and other detritus- for the good stuff to have room to come to the top.

So, here is my action plan, folks. Many, many deep bows and sincere thanks for letting me get that out there into the Ethers.  Lots of thank-you hugs and Reiki blessings for following along on my journey.



Update and Marie Forleo’s Interview with Brene’ Brown

Happy Almost-Equinox, Everyone!
Life here in Goshen continues to settle down for Jason and I as we adjust to the much higher vibrational level of our new home, Jason makes his way back to work after an extended time off due to an injury, and I find my center once again amid all the changes. I am blogging a little less and my efforts at building my business are stalled because my laptop has undergone an injury of its own (a cracked screen with spiderwebs of dark blue bleeding out from the site of the injury). In spite of all the change and some challenges, our lives feel more gorgeous than ever. Working in the garden revives and restores me in a way I had only glimpsed before living here, and the house itself feels like both a fortress and a sanctuary. So many small shifts in our consciousness are happening on a daily basis just from living in this home. But that’s a different post.


In order to help restore myself and protect my energy, I have begun listening to music and videos on my phone while at work. Yesterday, I had a newsletter from Marie Forleo featuring her interview with Brene’ Brown, who has a new book out called Braving the Wilderness. For those of you unfamiliar with Brene’s work, here is an excerpt from the home page of her website,

The official line: I’m a research professor at the University of Houston where I hold the Huffington Endowed Chair. I’ve spent the past sixteen years studying courage, vulnerability, empathy, and shame. I’m the author of four books: The Gifts of Imperfection, Daring Greatly, Rising Strong, and Braving the Wilderness.

The bottom line: I believe that vulnerability – the willingness to be “all in” even when you know it can mean failing and hurting – is brave. I do NOT believe that cussing and praying are mutually exclusive. And, I absolutely believe that the passing lane is for passing only.


This interview really moved me and reminded me of my little-girl self, who campaigned bravely for kindness and believed it her moral duty to protect those who could not protect themselves, never name-call, and always try to see the best in others.  My grown-up self is a little more cynical and a little more hands-off, but I feel myself returning to that open vulnerability and it both frightens and excites me. I feel like it is the best of me coming back to the fore. That’s why I so dearly love people like Brene’ and Marie Forleo, and I follow their work more closely than others’. I hope you find as much value in this interview as I did. There are some vital insights here that are crucial for the times we find ourselves in now.